How i feel

so I'm getting the empty feeling, I've tried to talk to clayton about how i'm feeling but the skype didn't work and i'm feeling like he wouldn't realy care anyway. I want to hear him tell me he loves me without me having to tell him first. I want to know that there's noone else. I'm giving myelf to him, i'm not talking to anyone i'm not physically with anyone else, i'm waiting for him to come home and i'm waiting for us to have a chance to be together and to have a fighting chance. when i talk to him about whats going on with our paperwork that deals with us being married he just shrugs it off and say I don't know, and in translation i don't know realy means i don't care. I don't know if thats how he realy feels but thats how i feel he feels and if he doesn't tell me diffrent how am i suppose to know. I know that if i could just be strong until he gets home if i could just last six more months until i get to see him for more than four days, we might have a fighting chance. but how am i suppose to get thru these next few months if i don't have my needs met. I can survive without my physical needs not being met, but i need my emotional needs met because that affects how i feel every day. if i'm holding my self for a man who can meet my emotional needs but just choses not to shows me that he realy doesnt care or love me and thats not somone i should be wanting to be with...

Moving, TDY to texas, and then PCS to missiouri

So the life of a Soldier\Army wife is never easy, my lease to my apartment is up at the end of this week so i have to move my mom into a new apartment or room, i leave for Texas in three weeks on TDY for three months and on my return to NJ i must PCS to MO, and two months after that Clayton comes home for R&R and he wants to go on a vacation. which is what im going to need after all of this moving around (more moving) im stressed because i have to still find a place for my mom to live since my lease is up, i have to fix my travel card, my car and pack to go on my TDY to texas.