How i feel

so I'm getting the empty feeling, I've tried to talk to clayton about how i'm feeling but the skype didn't work and i'm feeling like he wouldn't realy care anyway. I want to hear him tell me he loves me without me having to tell him first. I want to know that there's noone else. I'm giving myelf to him, i'm not talking to anyone i'm not physically with anyone else, i'm waiting for him to come home and i'm waiting for us to have a chance to be together and to have a fighting chance. when i talk to him about whats going on with our paperwork that deals with us being married he just shrugs it off and say I don't know, and in translation i don't know realy means i don't care. I don't know if thats how he realy feels but thats how i feel he feels and if he doesn't tell me diffrent how am i suppose to know. I know that if i could just be strong until he gets home if i could just last six more months until i get to see him for more than four days, we might have a fighting chance. but how am i suppose to get thru these next few months if i don't have my needs met. I can survive without my physical needs not being met, but i need my emotional needs met because that affects how i feel every day. if i'm holding my self for a man who can meet my emotional needs but just choses not to shows me that he realy doesnt care or love me and thats not somone i should be wanting to be with...