my fears

We've (Clayton and Me) have been so much over the years, a miscarriage, seperation, infedelity, a divorce and many ups and downs and back and forwards. I've prayed and pleaded for the streagth to start over. so far we've been doing realy good. i've had to talk to him about my fears which isnt like me bc i keep it in. im scared he's going to cheat im scared he's going to change his mind and leave. its hard to over come fears that have already been a reality at one point in our relationship. i know that im not going to allow myself to find comfort in the arms of another man. i've made that mistake befor and i believe that is one reason we ended up seperating in the first place. i love clayton so much and i would never do anything that would bring us back to that point. im praying for his safty and im praying for the streagth to be the woman that he needs me to be