Guilty

So i'm admitting it i am so guilty right now, I let myself get so stressed and so frustrated that i took it all out on Clayton. i know that i shouldn't of let it get that far but i did and now i'm soooo woried that he doesn't even want to talk to me. every one has told me that if he realy loves me and we are realy ment to be somthing as small as this shouldn't be such a deal but i feel so bad. I realy wish i could hear his voice and have him tell me it's ok and that we are ok. I sent his wedding ring to him and a box of goodies a couple of days before i went all crazy and i'm hoping that it'll be more than enough to say i'm sorry and i love you and i'm not insane and that i realy love you and etc. i'm just sooo woried, and scared if it's over it's gonna cut me deap, i didn't hold back this time and i gave myself in every aspect sooo i'm scared and i realy want to know that we are ok